couldn't exactly explain how it feels...
doesn't really feels like rejected.. 😂
but not exactly accepted...
its still feels like hanging and unfinished..
You see this person.
You stalked his FB profile.
You like this person.
You kept on thinking about him for days, weeks, months, years.. Day in day out.. you waited for his post on facebook. Eagerly responded while trying so hard to look smart. Eagerly waiting for a reply just so you can calm your own nerves.
Theb you found out he's attached. You're okay with it. As long as he's happy. 😊 Undeniably, u died a little inside, but still alive enough to be glad that he's happy.
But still, the same old routine still lingers. The thinking about, the stalking, the waiting, the commenting, the replying, all are just too real.
Deep down you do want to be with him. But the reality is just too far away. As a realist you are, you keep that thought aside and just keep it a secret crush. Exciting. Like teen love.
one word, and yet it brings a lot of different meanings to everyone.
one simple word, and yet its so complicated.
sometimes it comes at times we least expected.. sometimes it come when we really needed it.. sometimes it take a life time for one to find it.. but what ever the scenario is, love will always find its way into our life..
i fell in love..
i fell out of love..
he fell in love..
he was loving..
i was trying..
he was mending..
i was holding..
i was crying..
he was hurting..
he was bleeding..
i was dying..
we try..and try.. but it was me.. i wasnt feeling anymore..
part of me wants to put the blame on him too...
part of blames myself, though..
for a long time we keep it in..all boxed up..until we decided to end it..
before, i was eager to use "us".. Everywhere i go.. every decision i made.. its all about us... little did u care.. or see this small gesture... i dont mind.. its for me.. but when i stopped using it.. then you start to seek for it.. but it was too late... no more us at that time...
Alone i am again.. but i dont mind..
alone we are again.. just like when we met...
still alone we are..even when were together..
maybe alone shall i stay.. for how long, only He knows..